It is 7:10am. I have not slept and have not bothered climbing into bed yet because my upstairs neighbours are assholes. I have sent them four letters in total trying to establish contact, both me and my dad have knocked on their door when she's actively been in, but she simply will not engage with me... after I first brought it to her attention in May the wall groaning/growling quietened off for a few weeks, but as of mid June it started again and was accompanied by a new vibration noise in one of the rooms that can last 24/7 and is on at night, every night, all night, and I can feel the vibration for it rooms away. Like, literally what I have asked for here is the unspeakable crime of hey, please move this device from being directly on the floor and put it somewhere else. Like on a piece of furniture. Or a mat. If she actually spoke to me, hell, I'd buy her a fucking mat. But she won't!
So, yeah. I basically don't get to sleep until after she leaves for the day, and this woman is a pacer who spends up to two hours walking around in the morning after getting up before going out. Today (yesterday) she slept in, so I didn't get to go to bed until 1:30pm and got about four hours sleep. At this point I'm genuinely... upset by how sick this whole thing is making me. She was gone for a few days after the last time I did groceries and the PEM was so short. I felt like I could do creative things! I opened up my wip! I worked on it for the first time since March! And then she returned and I can feel myself steadily crashing by only getting a handful of hours in a day where I can sleep. I've spent
months barely able to do a damn thing other than shower and sleep and eat and the most brain empty tasks I can conjure to fill the hours I have to sit here waiting. It's unfair, I'm miserable, I'm so fucking tired.
Since it seems like she has calmed down after my last letter (she was so petty with noise lmao) but still isn't willing to do anything, the next step is contacting the building owner to go through her landlord. If that goes nowhere, noise nuisance. If that doesn't succeed, I don't know. Guess I'll never get to do anything for myself ever again.
So what have I been doing... stadium and alt levelling. Khlip and Amélie both went to 50 everything, and as of this week I'm working on S'triyx but much more slowly since I went so hard on them and also on Freja. Freja is approaching the end of 90 days of road to 90, and since
last time, I have:
( done way too much. )Stadium had the worst patch drop ever at the start of the season. No really, it introduced a build for Reaper where he could just wraith around invulnerable to all damage and do the highest damage in the lobby and have approximately .2 seconds of downtime and if all five of you don't shoot him in the .2 seconds of downtime he would not die. How they approved this I'll never know. They did this with a bunch of other powers on different heroes as well to make some truly awful, insufferable builds, and then, as of last week, announced they wouldn't be adding any new heroes or maps to Stadium and would essentially be abandoning the mode due to low percentage of daily players in it. They announced this in a blog post whilst talking about something else, and frankly, I am sick of the lack of respect that Blizzard (company) has for its playerbase when it comes to communication. They bury game-changing shit in blog posts all the time - they did the same with console aim changes - and you can retrospectively see the signs of them trying and failing to entice new players into Stadium, and all these new key-jangling features are always announced the day before they go live and
nobody who plays Stadium wants them at all. They make the grind revoltingly difficult if you didn't do it pre-emptively last summer. This low retention of players is two weeks worth of data, by the way. Which I would argue can't be a sound judgement when it was just after a seasonal event had ended and most of their players would be tired of grinding for rewards (don't get me started on how grindy the anniversary has been) and that they haven't added the entire roster into the mode and now won't, kept adding permenant flight heroes into the mode, and they've been adding new heroes into core every two months so of course people would not be 'playing it'. It's almost like you could ask your players for feedback or suggestions with surveys and such with saving the mode rather than just dropping it entirely! But what do I fucking know!!
As is it's kind of put a dampener on my enjoyment of it. I still like it, obviously, I just feel extremely wary of pouring more time into it if they're going to ruin the balance and perhaps abandon it completely in the coming months. They put so much effort and marketing into this it's just so. COMMUNICATE WITH YOUR PLAYERS!! PLEASE!! You successfully made me like it! I have played 400 hours of this mode in the last year and gotten 22 competitive weapons with it! I'm on the final push of getting golds for all women, I just got 6k for Sierra/D.Mon when she drops (Pharah is ACAB, she gets nothing, and I refuse to with her current VA. The cat is the spawn of the devil and a cat) and I believe the heroes after that will be a male omnic and perhaps an NB omnic, so I will be done after getting Ashe crimson from drives, so we'll see if I try to wean myself off Stadium or not, or if a few boys call to me...
It is now 8am and the walls are still groaning so I am going to eat tortilla chips with dip. I am shocked my body has let me eat this dip no consequences but I am going to make the most of it.
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