'Tis good to be awake
Feb. 4th, 2026 05:17 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
requiemsFinished base Shadowbringers, once again. Goodness it's so peak. Ryne breaking away from her fated life of passivity, choosing to fight for herself, much the reflection of stasis in light and activity in darkness... Emet-Selch being the only villain to get down onto your level, repeatedly, over eons, and you were the sundered's last chance and he still found you wanting. How he has spent millennia wanting to get back someone who sacrificed themselves and that sticks in the weave when he makes for himself his memory of a city. A city that is vast and beautiful and haunting and then he shows you it being destroyed. That you cannot be stewards to a star plagued by something that they in their infinite wisdom did not understand. That he misses and grieves the fractured soul of the one he was told to forget... only for you to have been in front of him this whole time. The loneliness, the grief almost destroyed him. He brought his all to bear against you... and lost. There's no fanfare on his defeat, because you understand the lengths he would go to to save the world completely, as you have likewise done the same. Greatest villain of all time.
And G'raha's yearning and the soft smiles between him and the wol in the moments after when he picks up the mantle of narrator, man, no wonder I folded. He is in love with the ideal of you but has come to know you again yourself and I cry, I cry so much. I love a catboy.
I don't know if I'll go into Endwalker right away with Khlip, I might break with a different game first and then come back to it, but my plan is to play through to 5.3 at least for maximum catboy feelings - before that I need to do Cylva's quest tomorrow so I can have her for the inn scene. I'm also going to get nier and probably Eden up, though the prior is priority. Nier glam is simply too good.
I did have to take a break over the weekend for drives in Overwatch so finishing SHB was a little belated after doing Amaurot - drives started a day later than usual (Friday instead of Thursday) which meant I had to face the weekend crowd and it was the epitome of hell. Friday I made it through three tiers easily enough, Saturday I watched my score be twenty away from the threshold three times and it was so gruelling, I've never had it so bad before 💀 I spent nine continuous hours at just that one tier rip. It's done, though! And best of all I at least reached my six month long gold weapon's for all women competitive points grind with one to spare, so next week I'll pick those up.
As for the spare... we're getting a spotlight tomorrow of what's to come in the next year (harrowing, anxiety laden experience) so we'll see how many women get revealed as heroes for the roster, if any. My wishes for heroes are almost entirely omnics atp but there have been feelers for precisely none of them so I don't hold out much hope. Give! Robots!! Put!!! Max!! In!!! The game!!!!
"But Rems he's an accountant not a fighter" I DONT CARE he owns a casino though he's not allowed to gamble and is set up in Monaco, give him shit with cards and suits and luck and probability and calling in hits, he's the longest standing lore hero that isn't in the game at this point. He has a voice! He has recorded lines! He's the most intriguing of the lot as he modified himself to be more palatable to humans, so he blinks, he does idle motions with his hands, give me Max.
And also Bars. I want Ashe's second ok. And Luna. I'm going to make a songstress work somewhere ok.
Otherwise my wishes are fairly basic: I want Ashe lore, I want old battlepass content made available for Ashe cosmetics, and I want new maps. But I'm worried about all the change-ups they're going to put in for no real reason again, especially when this season was already a mess thanks to the aim assist being shoehorned in that will finally be reverted next week, just in time for whatever else they do... weeps.
I'm also wary of Vendetta and what they're doing with her as they're pushing her extremely hard, and after a whole season of it I figured out that my problem with is it's all set up right now with no pay off (yet).
And we've done the set up a billion times before (less dramatically, three) and on the last occasion, we had a cinematic, three years of waiting for pay off, a smattering of the pve missions that made it from null sector's invasion a year after the timeline advanced, a set of short stories for the characters that didn't make it into the pve because this invasion was global and effected everyone be they human or omnic... and then we sat in limbo for two more years before Ramattra and Null Sector and his third of all omnics he brainwiped/kidnapped were shipped off to the Antarctic to rot until such a time they might be dragged into the main story again. Story beats certainly happened - the pay off did not. He and the invasion had to go if there was ever going to be progress, I get it, but it doesn't change the fact it becomes a "what was the point of all that" scenario. And whilst vendetta is making moves for a talon takeover and establishing herself, it hasn't happened yet. She's had so much drip fed lore in the last three months that's just introducing new players on the board for her to coerce and entice, and until such a time as she stages a coup and actually does something as the head of Talon (whatever that dramatic, terrorist organisation thing will be) we are still in the limbo of nothing happening and establishing her character. And it feels a little grating for her to be inserted out of nowhere and get so much attention when other heroes are floundering with nothing or little, or did not receive the same treatment on their launches. It hurts her as a character too, imo - she is here to put things into motion, as Doomfist, the current head of Talon, is an endorser of chaos and far too content to watch events unfold whereas she seems more proactive. Heading Talon was promised to her, but she did not get it after her father was killed. But Vendetta has not grabbed my interest at all because her design that was meant to be wolf themed fell extremely flat, I'm not seeing layers. If in six months she has moved the narrative on then great! If there are consequences actually instead of vague handwaving then great! If we get cinematics or long form media again then fantastic great! If talon does something ever at all then great! But at this point there is no guarantee and I've spent my trust tokens a long time ago. I will allow the new narrative team time to cook before casting final judgement, because what happened with Null Sector wasn't their fault, but set-up-for-nothing-again is an an expectation and a hurdle they have to get over, not me.
And G'raha's yearning and the soft smiles between him and the wol in the moments after when he picks up the mantle of narrator, man, no wonder I folded. He is in love with the ideal of you but has come to know you again yourself and I cry, I cry so much. I love a catboy.
I don't know if I'll go into Endwalker right away with Khlip, I might break with a different game first and then come back to it, but my plan is to play through to 5.3 at least for maximum catboy feelings - before that I need to do Cylva's quest tomorrow so I can have her for the inn scene. I'm also going to get nier and probably Eden up, though the prior is priority. Nier glam is simply too good.
I did have to take a break over the weekend for drives in Overwatch so finishing SHB was a little belated after doing Amaurot - drives started a day later than usual (Friday instead of Thursday) which meant I had to face the weekend crowd and it was the epitome of hell. Friday I made it through three tiers easily enough, Saturday I watched my score be twenty away from the threshold three times and it was so gruelling, I've never had it so bad before 💀 I spent nine continuous hours at just that one tier rip. It's done, though! And best of all I at least reached my six month long gold weapon's for all women competitive points grind with one to spare, so next week I'll pick those up.
As for the spare... we're getting a spotlight tomorrow of what's to come in the next year (harrowing, anxiety laden experience) so we'll see how many women get revealed as heroes for the roster, if any. My wishes for heroes are almost entirely omnics atp but there have been feelers for precisely none of them so I don't hold out much hope. Give! Robots!! Put!!! Max!! In!!! The game!!!!
"But Rems he's an accountant not a fighter" I DONT CARE he owns a casino though he's not allowed to gamble and is set up in Monaco, give him shit with cards and suits and luck and probability and calling in hits, he's the longest standing lore hero that isn't in the game at this point. He has a voice! He has recorded lines! He's the most intriguing of the lot as he modified himself to be more palatable to humans, so he blinks, he does idle motions with his hands, give me Max.
And also Bars. I want Ashe's second ok. And Luna. I'm going to make a songstress work somewhere ok.
Otherwise my wishes are fairly basic: I want Ashe lore, I want old battlepass content made available for Ashe cosmetics, and I want new maps. But I'm worried about all the change-ups they're going to put in for no real reason again, especially when this season was already a mess thanks to the aim assist being shoehorned in that will finally be reverted next week, just in time for whatever else they do... weeps.
I'm also wary of Vendetta and what they're doing with her as they're pushing her extremely hard, and after a whole season of it I figured out that my problem with is it's all set up right now with no pay off (yet).
And we've done the set up a billion times before (less dramatically, three) and on the last occasion, we had a cinematic, three years of waiting for pay off, a smattering of the pve missions that made it from null sector's invasion a year after the timeline advanced, a set of short stories for the characters that didn't make it into the pve because this invasion was global and effected everyone be they human or omnic... and then we sat in limbo for two more years before Ramattra and Null Sector and his third of all omnics he brainwiped/kidnapped were shipped off to the Antarctic to rot until such a time they might be dragged into the main story again. Story beats certainly happened - the pay off did not. He and the invasion had to go if there was ever going to be progress, I get it, but it doesn't change the fact it becomes a "what was the point of all that" scenario. And whilst vendetta is making moves for a talon takeover and establishing herself, it hasn't happened yet. She's had so much drip fed lore in the last three months that's just introducing new players on the board for her to coerce and entice, and until such a time as she stages a coup and actually does something as the head of Talon (whatever that dramatic, terrorist organisation thing will be) we are still in the limbo of nothing happening and establishing her character. And it feels a little grating for her to be inserted out of nowhere and get so much attention when other heroes are floundering with nothing or little, or did not receive the same treatment on their launches. It hurts her as a character too, imo - she is here to put things into motion, as Doomfist, the current head of Talon, is an endorser of chaos and far too content to watch events unfold whereas she seems more proactive. Heading Talon was promised to her, but she did not get it after her father was killed. But Vendetta has not grabbed my interest at all because her design that was meant to be wolf themed fell extremely flat, I'm not seeing layers. If in six months she has moved the narrative on then great! If there are consequences actually instead of vague handwaving then great! If we get cinematics or long form media again then fantastic great! If talon does something ever at all then great! But at this point there is no guarantee and I've spent my trust tokens a long time ago. I will allow the new narrative team time to cook before casting final judgement, because what happened with Null Sector wasn't their fault, but set-up-for-nothing-again is an an expectation and a hurdle they have to get over, not me.
