It's a mixed bag
Feb. 4th, 2025 07:13 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
requiemsI am still having issues with food.
For a positive, I'm not having burning middle abdomen issues or intense lower abdomen pain so I can reasonably say I've cut the problem food intolerances out. I suspect cheese might be heading towards the banned list though; before last groceries I was eating a lot of cheese, didn't have any for five days once I got more food, had a little, same rumbling pain returned. I don't accept this fact fondly.
The downside is I don't really know what the problem is. It's not intolerances, but it is struggling to digest. Sometimes it just. Doesn't. For days. And then experiences really bad pain until it finally goes to the bathroom. Like my lower organs just feel gunky and sludgy?? which I would attribute to lack of vegetables and fibre but it isn't particularly happy if I eat any of them. I cannot live on plain rice and scampi forever. The stir fry I made had actual ingredients in - bamboo shoots and water chestnuts which should do nothing to me, oyster sauce, pineapple, mock duck - and one night was fine, two were less fine but not like previous complaints, just. Grumpy. There's also a possibility it's not upset about the vegetables at all but the mystery natural spices in the mock duck so once again I'll have to experiment with it on its own and just the vegetables in a stir fry... I'm also struggling to differentiate between pain and hunger cues, they honestly feel the same to me... sighs. I will keep trying, and take more fibre supplements to maybe counter it.
The other option is this is just very belated "body is adjusting to no gallbladder" stuff. I've been eating a very specific high fibre diet for years and it's just, infuriating to me that it's decided most of it it cannot tolerate and then complains about the lack of fibre. What do you want from me.
I am also having issues with noise. I live next to a tram station; this was great when I was still able to leave the house because it made the city I live in accessible. Metrolink, the tram company, is doing month long works metres away from my bedroom window, 24/7. They are supposed to do less loud works at night, but so far the most obnoxious noises have been at night. The first night was six hours of a vehicle beeping and tools causing vibrations for about eight hours continuous so that was?? fun?? (It's not.) i simply can't get away from it and am at the mercy of whatever level of noise they go for today; and after 3 nights I'm already very overstimulated. I don't even know if this work will tackle my ongoing noise complaint with them/the council about road damage but boy do I hope so.
More importantly, I finished my first draft of Ashe site!!!! The final wordcount is 31,589 words over 20 pages; the shortest is under a 100 words and the longest is over 4k. I wrote the ouihaw page last and I don't know if I did them justice 😭😭 I was trying to be concise but I felt overly forgetful of my own reasonings due to pain/sensory saturation; I think it's fine though. As usual I'll let the whole document sit for a bit before coming back to tear it apart because I will care less about deleting things :') and rarepair week is next week, so I can go return to editing and additions for those fics distraction free...
Waiting out pain or noise with no brain for words has also meant I've made a lot of layouts for sites lol. I refreshed farron for the first time in nine years. I tried and failed an Amélie layout with no inspiration just to see what I would get, but I have a clearer idea for another so will likely attempt that soonish (I need stark colours and defined lines. Maybe white textured background with some black on the header and pops of red throughout to symbolise blood.) I also briefly attempted a guestbook layout but it's much too small and I don't have the brain to figure out installing a guestbook either rn but. I may do a new layout for my joined fanlisting page too to match Aigis and make it Yuka-tan pink... many possibilities.
For a positive, I'm not having burning middle abdomen issues or intense lower abdomen pain so I can reasonably say I've cut the problem food intolerances out. I suspect cheese might be heading towards the banned list though; before last groceries I was eating a lot of cheese, didn't have any for five days once I got more food, had a little, same rumbling pain returned. I don't accept this fact fondly.
The downside is I don't really know what the problem is. It's not intolerances, but it is struggling to digest. Sometimes it just. Doesn't. For days. And then experiences really bad pain until it finally goes to the bathroom. Like my lower organs just feel gunky and sludgy?? which I would attribute to lack of vegetables and fibre but it isn't particularly happy if I eat any of them. I cannot live on plain rice and scampi forever. The stir fry I made had actual ingredients in - bamboo shoots and water chestnuts which should do nothing to me, oyster sauce, pineapple, mock duck - and one night was fine, two were less fine but not like previous complaints, just. Grumpy. There's also a possibility it's not upset about the vegetables at all but the mystery natural spices in the mock duck so once again I'll have to experiment with it on its own and just the vegetables in a stir fry... I'm also struggling to differentiate between pain and hunger cues, they honestly feel the same to me... sighs. I will keep trying, and take more fibre supplements to maybe counter it.
The other option is this is just very belated "body is adjusting to no gallbladder" stuff. I've been eating a very specific high fibre diet for years and it's just, infuriating to me that it's decided most of it it cannot tolerate and then complains about the lack of fibre. What do you want from me.
I am also having issues with noise. I live next to a tram station; this was great when I was still able to leave the house because it made the city I live in accessible. Metrolink, the tram company, is doing month long works metres away from my bedroom window, 24/7. They are supposed to do less loud works at night, but so far the most obnoxious noises have been at night. The first night was six hours of a vehicle beeping and tools causing vibrations for about eight hours continuous so that was?? fun?? (It's not.) i simply can't get away from it and am at the mercy of whatever level of noise they go for today; and after 3 nights I'm already very overstimulated. I don't even know if this work will tackle my ongoing noise complaint with them/the council about road damage but boy do I hope so.
More importantly, I finished my first draft of Ashe site!!!! The final wordcount is 31,589 words over 20 pages; the shortest is under a 100 words and the longest is over 4k. I wrote the ouihaw page last and I don't know if I did them justice 😭😭 I was trying to be concise but I felt overly forgetful of my own reasonings due to pain/sensory saturation; I think it's fine though. As usual I'll let the whole document sit for a bit before coming back to tear it apart because I will care less about deleting things :') and rarepair week is next week, so I can go return to editing and additions for those fics distraction free...
Waiting out pain or noise with no brain for words has also meant I've made a lot of layouts for sites lol. I refreshed farron for the first time in nine years. I tried and failed an Amélie layout with no inspiration just to see what I would get, but I have a clearer idea for another so will likely attempt that soonish (I need stark colours and defined lines. Maybe white textured background with some black on the header and pops of red throughout to symbolise blood.) I also briefly attempted a guestbook layout but it's much too small and I don't have the brain to figure out installing a guestbook either rn but. I may do a new layout for my joined fanlisting page too to match Aigis and make it Yuka-tan pink... many possibilities.
