requiems

I didn't write anything for this in the actual goals post (aside from Ashe site) because I did not think it would be relevant but, given I now have another site that's shot up the priority list because I successfully made a layout for it, lol.

adds wol site. sighs. adds spider lady. doesn't elaborate

I don't even know what I would DO for Amélie but it's inevitable. Perhaps a one pager where I talk about her lore combined with my fascination with her; or, why I write her as I do. This is more of a "end of the year and maybe next" thing - after Ashe is done I'm still planning to tackle longfic but WoL site calls now I have a layout (I need many more headers, but I can get those with time) (and a name. Leaning either "Through you, we live" or "Shepherd to the Stars" right now). So I might at the very least outline it. It's kind of lore I already know because it's all stuff I have written/would write in Nano anyways, so I could potentially incorporate some fic from that in places... and site format means I would have to summarise it concisely, which would be useful for going wild with it in Nano times, ngl. I'd like to maybe also launch WoL site this year too, but it depends on scope; it'll probably be another long one.

I also still kind of want to do other writing weeks after successfully doing the Overwatch one but I gotta reign myself in and actually finish Ashe site first before deciding one way or the other.

As for other sites...

I think perhaps I will take down Kairi's tribute at some point. Listen. She is still my girl; she will always be my girl. But I haven't updated it in over 11 years and felt after 3 I might eventually do so for the catharsis, which is why I wrote Seven of Both (a rewrite of the game where she has a role) and made a new layout for her. And then I uh. Fell over into Ashe and Widowmaker and still have not managed to exit.

The thing is I have no desire to engage in the source material anymore. Watching her die was painful: it's why I'm very reluctant to watch other characters die that I have years worth of attachment to, but for Kairi it truly was like being spat at in the face. I should not be seeing women who have been promised growth for years being off-screen for most of the game and then mercilessly executed for no reason the minute they are. I refuse to give Nomura anymore chances, and Kingdom Hearts is pretty much dead to me.

This site is an outdated relic. It feels more of a benefit if I took the layout I made, used it for her fanlisting, and maybe, maybe have a very small one pager where I talk about my love for her in what was formerly one of my favourite series and why it hurt so much to have something cherished treated as pointless and worthless. Or perhaps I won't do that at all. I just want to put it to bed, I suppose.

Other upcomings. I would still like to one day do Transistor - I did make an outline back in probably 2017/18, layout is serviceable still, the foundations are there - I just need to replay it. Fray is very similar in that respect; I have one of my alts on hold with the DRK questline so I can enjoy it and maybe write it off that whilst it's fresh in my mind. I just feel like these will be harder as it's less authentic than a first time response (Control site was a success in more ways than one but sheesh does it give me a two week time limit to gush about something that has me spinning it around in my brain until I start to forget the details, thanks for that body) but. These are such important experiences to me that have stayed with me forever. I will try, maybe someday eventually.

Aloy is... a probably. I fully expect I will be reminded of my reasons when HZD/HFW happens, so she remains.

I should probably take Old Kingdom off the list, though. Again I had a whole outline and my knowledge of it is still fairly sound but - I can't read. I don't think this is a tribute I could do due justice to anymore; it's something that would now go into a one page essay about a formative experience than having a full site dedicated to it exploring the ins and outs, because I don't remember them, and unlike say, Transisotr and Fray is now almost inaccessible to me. I kind of mourn not having done it properly at the time; though I suppose Interregnum exists as a window to my love for this series so not all is lost.

I just think, Ashe, WoL site, then Amélie are good instances for things I love constantly. These are my daily enjoyments and these are their names and why. I really would like to make a record of it. It's there for the reminder: it's a memory for myself and a record that I exist. Maybe then I can make a little room for other things that I love too.